It’s been a wild ride this year. Kicking off with a trip around the Nicoya Peninsula, Costa Rica with my best friend. Surfing, laughing, yoga-ing, being IN the flow, in the treetops, amongst the monkeys. Life is good. Returning home to a major shift in my long-term relationship. Woah. Moving into a new house with one of my other best friends. Yay. Healing. Grieving. Reflecting. Growing. Re-learning. Then… deciding one day… to change it all.
I am ready. I am excited. I am scared sh*tless. I am motivated. I am lazy. I am confident. I am feeling weak. I am happy. I am sad. I am. I am.
This is the human experience.
When asked, “Why are you doing this?” My only answer was… “I am ready… I’m ready to be uncomfortable.”
It is in those moments of discomfort that we learn. Imagine you are doing something in your life that physically challenges you. For example, running a long distance, taking a 90 minute yoga class, walking up a flight of stairs, treatment of illness, etc. If you have experienced physical challenge in your life, then you know that moment. That moment that self doubt and fear begin to creep in. That one moment of hesitation. That one glimpse of giving up. Then… you breathe the deepest breath. And push through. You feel the endorphins rush. You get a new sense of motivation. Your body begins to weep all those emotions of doubt from your pores and you feel cleansed. You feel the change. You hold the pose. You take 3 more steps. You feel hope. You endure.
Not only do you endure… but you thrive.
Now apply this experience to times of emotional discomfort. Wow. Those darkest moments. Those scary moments. When all you can do is try to breathe amongst the sobs and the pains in your chest. Breathe. Weep. Be IN it. Then, let it pass. You feel the endorphins rush as you begin to calm. You get a new sense of motivation. You feel cleansed. You feel the change. You feel hope. You endure.
This has been my experience, at least.
I am all settled in to my new digs down here in South Florida. Well, settled-ish. This means that I am still picking my wrinkled clothes out of a carry-on suitcase. I am trying daily to down-size my endless supply of toiletries (heaven forbid I run out of tampons or coconut oil…*note* internal language of fear fear fear… I don’t have enough.. ego ego*) .. REMEMBER! Chelsea, breathe. You have all that you need. As a matter of fact, I am abundant. I have MORE than enough. I am not cold. I am not hungry. My mantra this week: As I breathe in “I am whole and complete”, as I breathe out “I am humble and grateful.”
I have practiced at a new studio. Most of the classes are heated. Not necessarily my jam…but the teachers are creative. …ish *note* internal language of judgment … based from fear fear fear…* REMEMBER! Chelsea, breathe. Choose love. This new experience is a reminder that I have all that I need. That my story is my own.
I feel calm. Settled in the unknown. My roommate is a soul-sister. We have truly traveled lifetimes together. I am so excited that we found each other again. I knew it would happen.
She leaves tomorrow. I have a new roommate. *note* internal language of judgement… fear fear fear. REMEMBER! Choose love. I am calm. I KNOW how to hold space. She is stressed. I can handle this. Breathe. Hold space for her to vent. Show compassion. Allow that to be a mirror to my own Self. Authentic Self. Ah, there you are. My heart. I remember you, Love.
My first solo deck/stewardess job was this past weekend in Miami. Wow, a whole new world is open. An opportunity for private yoga session. A chance to work my *ss off and to show my skills. An offer for a full time job. It is all happening so fast. I have almost too many opportunities. Wow. Timing is everything. I breathe in wholeness, I breathe out gratitude.
Horizons are so bright… I gotta wear shades. Polarized ones of course 😉 *Thanks to Uncle Rick for always saying this to me my entire life…*
A hue huge interview tomorrow. Dream job… Stay tuned Endless love….. ~Chel(on the)sea … HAHA.. ok.. too corny… had to… one time <3